life is a bitch
life can be a bitch at times but i have coosen to suck it up a deal with life the only way i know how.....by being a bitch right back n_n
well ya .... im bored and depressed and i feel like bitching so here i go......
today was a pretty good day over all....but i feel like shit my head hurts i just throw up like 5 times and my mom is mad at me cuz she seen that i was cutting again ..... i hate it when i m waering something that i think look good in and she tells me that i look like a slut. it pisses the hell out of me! im going back to school next week and im scared as hell my teaches is going to be a guy so thats not so good cuz im not good with guys they are all ass holes! well most of them anyway....life sucks like aways my daddy is moving out and wont let me go with him! and i want to get out of this go damn house and do something with my life! have some friends go to movies have a boyfriend who loves me and wants to hold me when im sad. all i want in life is to be happy is that so much to ask i asked god every fucking day of my life to just let me be happy and love life and he had to make it wores! life is so bad now that at times i want to kill myself and i think of how im going to do it! but then i think about it and i dont do it becaues i have a family that loves me and that would hurt then more then anything. so i live life un happy just to make others happy. i have done so much for others and i get nothing in return. all god has done for me is made every day of my life a more hell then it was the daybefore. i dont know why he does this to me and at times i wounder if there even is a god. or a heaven or hell. i have come conclusion that i will serve NO god nor no saten i will serve myself and olny me and i will do as i tell my self. i will be my own person not who god or any one else wants me to be. i have my own mind and dont wish to listen to god! if i choose to serve a nother god that is my choose but i will not repet not sevre jessuse christ! he has made my life a living hell and i will not serve him any longer. i will choose my own path and make my own mastaks and i will love my self wether others love me or not ....becuese i make me beautiful because god didnt i had to do it all myself. and thats all i have to say . good know and blessed be! i love you all and i hope you have a good night i know i will now that i have made up my mind! love you and so on....<3
sorry if i spelled any thing wrong. im a bad speller
well ya .... im bored and depressed and i feel like bitching so here i go......
today was a pretty good day over all....but i feel like shit my head hurts i just throw up like 5 times and my mom is mad at me cuz she seen that i was cutting again ..... i hate it when i m waering something that i think look good in and she tells me that i look like a slut. it pisses the hell out of me! im going back to school next week and im scared as hell my teaches is going to be a guy so thats not so good cuz im not good with guys they are all ass holes! well most of them anyway....life sucks like aways my daddy is moving out and wont let me go with him! and i want to get out of this go damn house and do something with my life! have some friends go to movies have a boyfriend who loves me and wants to hold me when im sad. all i want in life is to be happy is that so much to ask i asked god every fucking day of my life to just let me be happy and love life and he had to make it wores! life is so bad now that at times i want to kill myself and i think of how im going to do it! but then i think about it and i dont do it becaues i have a family that loves me and that would hurt then more then anything. so i live life un happy just to make others happy. i have done so much for others and i get nothing in return. all god has done for me is made every day of my life a more hell then it was the daybefore. i dont know why he does this to me and at times i wounder if there even is a god. or a heaven or hell. i have come conclusion that i will serve NO god nor no saten i will serve myself and olny me and i will do as i tell my self. i will be my own person not who god or any one else wants me to be. i have my own mind and dont wish to listen to god! if i choose to serve a nother god that is my choose but i will not repet not sevre jessuse christ! he has made my life a living hell and i will not serve him any longer. i will choose my own path and make my own mastaks and i will love my self wether others love me or not ....becuese i make me beautiful because god didnt i had to do it all myself. and thats all i have to say . good know and blessed be! i love you all and i hope you have a good night i know i will now that i have made up my mind! love you and so on....<3
sorry if i spelled any thing wrong. im a bad speller
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