friday sucked big time... i was sent to the hosbital cuz my mom and dad found a note i wrote when i was really depressed....that not was a suicide note...i wrrite em all the time but its only cuz it makes me feel better. i wasnt going to really kill myself.heres the note i wrote.


tittle: would you miss me
by: michelle bevins

would you miss me if i died? would u hate me if i killed myself? i am asking these Q's for one reason and that reason is because it may be happening sooni cant take much more and i hate my life so why should i have to live it?to : all my friends and loved ones I'm so sorry i had to put you through this. i really am. but i just cant take and more Lie's. i cant take much more of this life! if i don't do this now i never will..and then i will be in pain for the rest of my life....no one loves me like the kinda love i really need. plz don't feel bad 4 me. i really will be happier this way...i will be watching over u all and i will keep you safe ...i think we all know I'm not going to heaven. so don't look 4 me when u get there. because it would be a wast of time. just like my life. a waist of time... i love you all with all my heart and i would never want any of you to have to feel the way i do right now. plz love your self and never comet suicide like i am about to....its not worth it u all have good lives....i am doing this because i hate myself and i have a really bad life...but i am going to go now...i probably wont be back...idk if i will ggo through with it or not..i hope i do tho. love always,Michelle


i wrot that when i was REALLY depressed...but i didnt mean any of it. but ya it sucked. but it was a good thing cuz i got to talk to my mom and have her LISTEN to what i had to say...it was nice for once. well im gonna go now. but i'll be back on monday to tell you more about my day ^_^ love u all.
<3michelle<3