Ok so, i havent posted on here lately,
i broke up with dan, not too proud of my reasons for doing it, but i did,. and i cant change it now,
Now Im single, and not loving it as much as i thought i would,
Alot of people are hatein on me, becuz of who i am,
i think i lost a friend today, becuz i spoke my mind.
He told me he was going out with this girl, that he knows i cant stand.
and then when i told him what i thought about the hole thing he got pissed and told me not to talk to him so, im going to respect his wishes and not talk to him, i mean really its none of my busynes who he goes out with. but the girl hes going out with is ugly, annoying, and just straight up fucking lame.
i mean in my openion he could do so much better, but hey its none of my busynes,but i cant help but speak my mind its who i am. and im not going to change. and he should know that by now.
but anyway,
lifes not too bad here, besides the fact that i cant get a good man and keep him. i guess i should be use to that by now, but im not. i mean i dont think im ugly or anything. but alot of people seem to think i am. so i dont know maybe ive been lying to myself.
And alot of people seem to be judging me before they get to know me, like this guy at my school, he makes fun of me all the time, calling me fat and ugly an shit and hes so annoying just the shit he says is fuckin stupid. but like i told him the other day, i dont show him respect becuz he dont show me any. but i dont know maybe, things will change as i get older, i know i can be annoying at times, i dont try to be, i think maybe, i should just keep to myself. you know, only talk to people when they talk to me, i dont know im so confused right now, i mean i think im a pretty cool person, but i know i try sometimes to get people to like me and thats what gets me into trouble. i dont even mean to do it. it just kinda happens. but oh well i cant change how people see me. i can only change how i see myself. and i feel like im just rambuling on about shit that no one cares about i mean. really if i think about it, i dont have that many friends , just alot of people who talk to me, becuz they get a kick outa my stupidety.
but im done now, becuz this is basicly a wast of my time, becuz know ones ganna read this anyway, and if they do they wont give two shits. so im out.
peace
<3Missy<3

p.s
i know my spelling sucks, so get over it.