my hate!

For so long i had pushed god away, blaming him for the things that had been done to me. my soul became numb and i went down the path of darkness, instead of crying out to go for his love i push and push until i completely blocked him out, i hated god, i really did, i was filled with such a hate that with out the darkness i most likely would have lost my sanity, i embraced the darkness and worshiped it in replacement of god, i was so full of hate, that it blinded me from what could happen if i went down the path of darkness. and as i started down that path, at first every thing was great, i felt happy, (or at least what i thought was happy) then things took a turn for the worst, my family Begin to fall apart, it wasn't until i Begin talking to Cheri hane that i Begin to see what was happening. i Begin going to church and praying, but i started getting depressed because i seen how every one around me was being touched by god in one way or anther, and i felt nothing, i couldn't understand it, Cheri told me all i had to do was ask for god to come back into my life and he would, and i did, and nothing changed, it wasn't until i truly opened my heart up one day at church, and asked Cheri if she would pray for me. which i had done many times before, but for some reason this time felt different. as Cheri and i began to pray, god began reveling himself to me, touching me in a way i had never felt before. as i set there on my knees pouring my heart out, i was the beauty and grace of god, i felt his unconditional love for me, something id never thought id feel ever.

since that day, i haven't been the same.

i feel happier

that hate that i had for life, for god. was washed way so to speak.

and i have Cheri to thank for her love for me. for never giving up on me. even when i pretty much insulted her belief in god so many times.

i want to thank every one from the church, for being by my side,

and keeping me in your prayers even when i asked you not to pray from, because of the hate i had for god. I'm thanking you for not listening to me ^_^

well I'm done.

i know some of this probably didn't make much since, I'm not very good at putting heart felt letters, stories what ever together. but i tried, i felt that i needed to share this. because if it wasn't for you all and gods undying love, i would probably be dead right now.

so thank you all once again

and good night i must head to bed before dad kills me

love you all

and god bless.

lifes a funny thing

Well aaron broke up with me today,

lol the funny thing about it is, im not upset.

i guess deep down i knew he was ganna dump me sooner or later,

better sooner then later right. lol

anyways the only stupid thing about the hole thing was, that he didnt even have the balls to break up with me himself. he dad his lil friends do it for him.

so after they came and told me that he wanted to break up with me,

i walked over to him with the biggest smile on my face,

and laughed at him.

i told him, "hahaha is this what you want?"

he said " yep"

i said " ok, but just to let you know, this is the stupidest mistake you have ever made in you pittiful little life"

he just got this look on his face like his mom just died or something,

and i said " but hay its your lose. not mine" and i walked away with a smile,

still laughing inside.

HAHAHA god i love being me!

he'll come crawling back on his knees asking for me back,

and i'll look at him, and laugh and say see i told you

and walk away.

ok well hehe i think i coverd everything so. yeah im done for now, untill tomorow,

love you all

♥Missy♥

video i made of my family

FAMILY

pray for me

i have court Friday..

its my sentencing.

keep me in your prayers this week..

that god will keep his hand on me,

and keep me out of jail.

i really don't want to go to jail,

then again who does.

i am sorry for what i did..

and I'm doing better at controlling my anger.

what ever happens happens for a reason.

so if i do get jail time.

it must be in gods great plan right?

well that's all for now.

love you all and plz remember to keep me in your prayers

<3missy<3

drunk drivers

last night the people of gallatin county ky and me lost someone very close to many people because of a drunk driver that hit her head .. coimin into her lane on 127 people who drive drunk and take the lives of other people should not live.... Sam spade was a very nice and good person she would always do her best to pick you up when you down. her memory will live on in all of us. i know she is watching over us, and smiling down from heaven, she was a good person and she lost her life to someone so stupid, my prayers are with her family.

woot

hay guys,

well so far things are going great with aaron,

He is soooo amazing, its like wow! i cant even

put into words how awesome he is.

He treats me like a princess.

well here a poem i wrote maybe a month ago. let me knwo what u think.

*Missy*

I'll Miss you

I'll always remember that look in your eye
and all your nice words that had made me cry,
its funny really how you dont even care
the way that i felt when you touched my hair
you left me so soon,
i couldnt react to the truth that your love was only an act
now that youve gone,
i can just miss the sound of your voice
and the taste of your kiss.