hey

ok im a lil freaked out....can anyone or has anyone been able to see things before they happen? let me know. if u have or can send me an email to (sexy_marshmallow121@yahoo.com) because ive been able to for like 3 years but never made a big deal of it because it was always just little things like seeing who i would talk to the next day or finding out my boyfriend matt would brake up with me. but the past few mounths ive been seeing things that freak me out a bit. things that have ended up happening. like with my mom and dad i seen it before it happend. and when mike and mysti broke up i knew about that too...cuz i seen it. but what i seen last night really freaked me out...and the things that are happening to me health wize. not good signs. and cheri if ur reading this call me on my moms cell if im not there IM me on yahoo...i'll bethere most likely. i really need to talk to you. so do that asap. im scared to sleep now because of the dreams and i dont wanna know how its gonna end. cuz so far its not going good. and these kinda dreams always come true. i swear on my life im not joking. this is freaking me out. ive been stressing about it alot. and i cant get the images of the dream to stop popin up in my head. my head is starting to hurt so much that it feels like its gonna pop.i feel like banging it on a wall to make them stop. OH CHERI THERES SOMETHING ELSE I NEED TO TALK TO U ABOUT VERY ASAP! OK! but yeah sorry that jsut cam to mind and i had to type it before i forgot because of all the freaking images. and other things, id tell you all about them but i cant cuz some people on here have big mouths and others would think im nuts.lol sorry. well im gonna chill for a few. my hands and head is starting to hurt really bad. so i'll talk to yall later. peace.]

love always,
<3>

to all ma peeps in hellsville.

I'll be back in school tomorrow. YAY i cant wait...i miss you guys. i still am sick but not contagious so my mom is making me go... oh wells

lately things have been pretty messed up around my house... my parents are trying to make some changes in our family...some of the changes i like but others i don't...at all! oh well i cant change it. i got my self into this mess so now i have to try and get out of it and get their trust back.i fucked up big time. but i can dwell in the past. just got to try and look at the future. i have been in a hell of a lot of trouble lately. most of you know why. and those of you who don't. probably don't need to know...lol

when my dad to me to the DR. because i was REALLY sick. he started asking me if i was prag and all this other shit. i don't know where he got the idea that i was,..but when i find out there's gonna be some ass kicking. i have an idea..but I'm not sure yet... but what ever...cuz im not prag. so yeah. just wanna make that clear to every one. I'M NOT PRAG!!!!!

yeah well I'm gonna go now...ttyl

<3michelle<3

depressed

matt (my boyfriend) dumped me on sat. i loved that boy so much. i would have died for him... if only i would have had the chance to tell him how much he ment to me. then maybe we would still be together. on top of all of that im charged with assault and my mom and dad are fighting again. my dad acts like he hates me, and my mom is really messed up, my dad lost his job and my moms about to if she doesnt get her her act straight, we are dying financhaly, and my mom cant ever get the house cleaned up without someone doing it for her, mike is geting in all kinda of trouble, and i am too, my dad told me that me and mike are screwing up every ones life. aint my life just the greatest!
sorry about the spelling,

hallow hearts

hey read this really long poem i wrote to night.., ive been wroking on it all night....mom and dad really liked it.^_^ feels good to be able to write again.

Hallow hearts
By: Michelle bevins

Hearts hard and hallow,
Thie soul cold and shallow,
I reached for thee,
Called out thie name,
As you walked away in shame,
I fall to my knees in tears,
As im left with alone with all my fears,
Broken up inside,
I try to run and hide,
Hide from the fears that hunt me,
Oh why can’t you see,
That I truly need thee,

You break me down,
You see straight through me,
See all the pain and sorrow
That is deep within this hallow soul,


Please don’t leave me here alone,
Like a cold hard stone,
I’m dying, I’m crying,
OH GOD! I’m trying,
Trying hard to keep it real,
Trying hard not feel,
Feel the pain rising up with in me,

I truly need thee,
Please just hold me,
Let me sleep in thie arms,
Show me that love it real,
That I don’t have to be scared to feel,
That this broken heart of mine can heal,
Heal from all the wrong that was done to me,
That my eyes can see the sun,
That there is no reason to run,
No reason to hide,
From these feelings I feel inside,
That I’m not the only one,
Running from the sun,
Show me how to let time fly,
Show me how to touch the sky,
How not to cry,
Hold me close,
Arms around me tight,
Tell me every things going to be alright,
Please just stay with me one more night,
Until the sun shines so bright,
Please hide me from this light,
That shines oh so bright,
It burns my soul,
Like you light my fire,
You are my Altamont desire,
The way you burn my heart with your hot hot fire,
You make me love this world,
Make my heart sour higher,

a song im writing,

I stand here alone like a cold hard stone,
i remember all the things we use to share,
the way you ran your fingers through my hair,
you made me think you really cared,
lifes just not fair,
i want to flot in the air,
i want to fly like a bird,
i just dont wanna be here any more,
you make me cry,
you make me want to die,
you make me want to run and hide,
hide from all the tthings i feel inside,
from all the tears ive cried,

thats all i have for now,

a poem...and a few pics

dedicated to MATT my baby boy
by Michelle bevins..
We came together by a friend,
lets just hope my heart can mend,
My heart was broken, shattered, torn to peaces,
now the peaces of my heart,
are ready for a new start,
i think of you night and day,
the image of you wont go away,
the thought of you not by my side,
makes me want to run and hide,
i love you now and for ever, my heart will stay true,
true to the only one i love which is you.










ummmmpeace?








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omg i feel like i can fly.. i just got back in contact with the man of my dreams....an old friend from KY i never really knew him that well and i didnt like him in the way i do now...we got to talking..and now we are going out....he moved to cincanaty ohio...^_^

sorry ....i have been on the phone with my baby...^_^ yeah yeah!!!!!!!! i gotz me z bf...he is so hoy and so fine...hes the sweetest, most respcetful guy ive ever met in my hole life...i love him to death. when i hear his voice...my heat jumps, and a smile comes over my face that makes my face hurt. the way he calls me baby...makes my heart fly.u just dont know how much i love this boy. i cant go a day without talking to him i would lose my mined....i text him on my moms cell all the time shes gonna kill me when she gets the bill...lmfao...i wuve my baby tho...he means the world to me and if he ever left me i would die in side and out...i llove my baby boy and nothing will ever change that....i hope to be getting a pic of him soon,,....so i can put it on here...^_^ well g2g love u guys

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Sometimes life seems to quiet into paralyzing silence Like the moonless dark, meant to make me strong. Familiar breath of my old lies Changed the color in my eyes Soon he will perferate the fabric of the peaceful by and by Sorrow lasts through this night I'll take this piece of you, and hold for all eternity For just one second I felt whole... as you flew right through me. Left alone with only reflections of the memory To face the ugly girl that's smothering me. Sitting closer than my pain... He knew each tear before it came, And soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by We kiss each other one more time And sing this lie that's half way mine The sword is slicing through the questions so I won't be fooled By his angel light.. Sorrow lasts through this night I'll take this piece of you and for all eternity For just one second I felt whole as you flew right though me and up into the stars Joy will come

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