fucking bitch!!!!!

oh my god! i have to go to court some time this week or next! because of some stupid bitch at my school! she has been say'n i have S.T.D.'s and a lot of other shit that's pissing me off! anyway i have to go to court because she and i got in a fight once in the bathroom at school " i never hit her" all i did was tell her to keep her fucking mouth shut and that she would be sorry if she didn't! then she went to the office and said i cornerd her and held my fist up to her and said i was going to kick her ass! " all bull shit! i didn't get in trouble then but they said " i would go to J.D.C. if i got into it with her again! she made it look like i was the bad guy and she started with the cry'n shit! >_< then today i got in her face "again" and told her to stop telling people i have S.T.D.'s and that I'm fucking people I'm not! i also told her to stop telling my friends that I'm say'n things about them behind their backs! and then she went and said that i cornerd her again and that i was cursing her out and i hit her! god damn it! now i have to go to court and go through all this shit and i may even go to jail!!!! i am soooooooo mad right now i could fucking kill her. like really kill her!!!! i hate her sosososossoos much! she told me that she was going to do what ever i took to put me in fucking J.D.C. omg i am going to fucking cry! i hate my life its not fair!



i hate this life

love is the slowest form of suicide

Life seems to hate me more and more each day! and each day i suck it up and hold back the tears! i cant seem to get the image of him out of my head! i seems as if he is hon-ting me! i see him in my sleep 'every time i close my eyes' i cant make the feeling that is building up inside of me go away! i hate myself every day for loving him! He showed me what happiness was and showed me that i was a beautiful person! and when i finally took it all to heart he showed me the pain of a broken heart! he kicked me when i was down he laughed when i cried! he said he loved me and now that he is gone i cant help but wonder why i still love him! after all he did to me! all the pain he caused! why the hell do i still care!?!?!?! i cant take much more of this pain! i cant take much more hurt!

well i need to go! i need to think about what I'm going to do!

love always

michelle aka M









who would love somethig like that!!!!!!

Sexy jessie

One Of my besT frieNds jeSsIE
If only i WAs AS beAutiful and sexy As shE is! i would E so happy

well today waS MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. IT WAS OK. A LITTLE SCARY! BUT it wAs FUN! AFTER TODAY THO WE ARE GONNA BE GEttING WORK ANd thAT ReALlY suckS
WELL DAT ALL I GO! SORRY ABOUt THE LETTERS MY KEYBoreD IS FUCkED UP! HER IS A NEw pics of me

the weight of the world!

I don't know why but when ever I'm around my mom its like this big rush of air "really stinky air" hits me in the face and knocks me right on my ass. when ever she's around it like the world is falling apart and all the little pieces are falling on me.
i love her i really do but being around her is not good for my mental state of mind. she literally is driving me insane. we she stats bitching at me i swear i just want to ripe my hair out! instead of showing my anger turds her. i take it out on myself when I'm alone. I'm not talking about cutting myself, " some of you may have taken it the wrong way" I'm talking about scratching and hair pulling and throwing things at the walls.
but anyway, when she's around me i just get so stressed out and depressed. so depressed that i want to cut my self soooo soooo bad but i know i cant because 1) i don't want my sister Jessica to kick me ass and 2) because i don't want to be put in the nut house!.its so hard some times to not cut myself! i mean she drives me nuts. I'm thinking of going in to foster care. because if i have to live alone with here its going to kill me. i mean really kill me. and my dad wont let me live with him. its just getting to the point were I'm going to have to move out! i love my mom with all my heart but i don't want to lose it ether. and that's whats going to happen if i have to live with her alone. so i don't know what I'm going to do. my head is so fucked up right now. mom and dad are trying to make me stop smoking and that's not good because when i do get stressed i normally smoke but their not letting me do that even when i tell them that I'm stressed. all they say is " do we need to go see some one at the E.R" and i don't want to go there again! so i am just going to have to go through this alone. because i cant live with my mom and my dad wont let me live with him and i have no where else to go, so i have to go in to foster care i guess. man i hate life right now. but you know what its all going to get better i know it will because I'm going to make sure of it! I'm not going to let this get me down! so I'm going to go now and have myself a good cry and go to bed and then I'm going to get up and its all going to go away. because it all just a bad dream that it. I'm going to wake up and life is going to be great! n_n
OK so peace out! blessed be ! and rock on!







the pics above are of my sexy fav singer dani filth from cradle of filth!